Was standing on the edge of the ocean trying to decide whether to jump or not...would it be safe or not..
Then looked down...smiled...i wasa already wearing swimming trunks..it was never up to me to decide...all i had to do and could do was take that plunge..
i took a deep breath...now laughing...ready or not..here i come!!

Frustration!

7 Hrs on sleep in the last 60 hrs...3-4 hrs of it on a plane...
All your aspirations bottled into one day...one interview..
When the stakes are so high..one bad day and one year gone..like a click of the finger..
And once all this is done..I sit here contemplating how bad did I do?!?...and I fear the answer that is already there in the back of my mind..
I hate this uncanny knack of mine...already knowing that the worst is going to happen before it actually does..ppl say I'm being pessimistic...but i know these things..and they come true..
Research that would have taken hardly half an hour will possibly cost me a year in my career...this pin prick will irritate me for a long time to come..and I can't let go of this...failure on your own account is often very hard to digest...and I am highly constipated right now...so to say!..

Kahan chali gayi hai saali khushi!!!